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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Saturday, December 10, 2005 11:15 PM
piang. now damn warm and sweating. shit man. i'm afraid of heat. argh. cannot tahan seh. drinking coffee now. so tired today. think i slept at the wrong time yesterday. slept too early liao, around 5am. sigh. tonight got shows to watch. lucky the aircon in the living room is working. if not i will leave house arhs. because nowadays due to the construction workings, i cannot open my windows. and my aircon keep dripping water. irritating. sigh. can go bang wall liao. and guess what, i sleep on the sofa yesterday just for the air con in the living room. lols. and i woke up earlier than my dad, that's why didnt kana him scold. but i woke up and went back to sleep. haha. but i'm not a PIG!

yeah. today went out with mei [joycelyn]and her LP. felt so extra myself. supposed to be er ren shi jie ma. haha. but then i did enjoy it la. don't worry, i won't feel pangseh de. because everytime go out with friends, i sure is walk behind de. this is the few times i walk beside seh. haha. nevermind if you cancel the outing with me, i still went out with my mei and her LP. thought you didn't go out is because you think i might go. sigh. but if you go today, i will be damn happy. hahas. i'm going crazy. haha. taught my mei how to be a good LAOGONG. lols. even your LP think i'm a great LG arhs. you better learn more skills arhs. though i think all my LPs all sian liaos. sad seh. sobs. whatever, care for your LPs more la. haha. thanks for introducing your LP to me. had quite a fun time with you guys. the shopping with you and joanne was a great one. lol. went into the shops to look around. found a few quite nice de, but the price also very nice. lols. i only left the shoes havnt buy for R.O.D night nia. sigh. wearing all black also. lols. but the top got strips de la. don't know how i will look, especially now my hair so long liao. sigh.

as i was saying, i thought you didnt go is because of me. but the real reason is because you are a PIG! wahaha. jk. just now shoot you liao. now don't want shoot you again. later say i bully you arhs. haha. you not that petty i know, because you are pretty mahs. hees. thanks for making me smile, though you are the one who make me cry la. haha. but even by chatting with you can make me smile liao. lols. today quite sad is because thought you going out with them, then thought that can see you. but then you didnt go. sobs. nevermind, i shall wait for NEXT YEAR! wah. so long. sigh. if next year, you tell me next year again. i will go die arhs. haha. jk. i won't die so easily. i will stand strong. ahah.

Hmph, though you cannot make it last minute, but at least, i went out with other people lo. sigh. everything seems to have a second chance. but whether i will have the courage to ask you out, i'm not sure. and therefore, i felt so sad, so depressed when you told me you can't make it. sigh. i'm not sure if there's a second time when we will discuss about an outing. wells, nonetheless, you take care of yourself. hope to see you soon.

sigh. you good. lidat say THEY like me. you jealous arhs. lols. stupid them lo, ask so many things. sigh. then you go misunderstand. another who make me sad. argh. sometimes i can sense what you are thinking and how you are feeling. but at other times, i enjoyed chatting with you. i enjoyed to an extent that i had forgotten about your feelings. thanks for all the moments that i had enjoy. you made me realise many weakness in me. and i don't wish to hide it. because it's tiring. therefore, i chose to deal with it and hand it to Lord. all i want to say everyday is thank you and sorry. thank you for the memories, and sorry to make you sad and hurt. you said you found the person who can cure your heart sickness, go and ask that person cure you then. lols. must have confidence. and don't learn the bad things from me can? i beg you.

tomorrow is a special day. 11/12/05. lols. that's when something happen. HEE. the happiness and saddness started on 11/09/05. ever since then, my life is full of ups and downs. lol. kind of weird. wells, you don't even know what i'm talking about. sigh. wells, monday is the band camp. lols. i have yet to pack my things arhs. going to miss my computer. sobs. cannot chat with you,my **,andyou. luckily can bring handphone arhs. but doubt you guys will sms or wadeva. nevermind. i shall see how things go. lols. mei arhs, don't worry about the band camp la. i realised that the sec1s and some sec2s already sian liao. some even don't want to go. but i guess i will hunt them down on the first day since mr chew won't be coming bahs. i think so. lols. and the council team have to be united to make this camp a great and fruitful one. :)

Lord, tomorrow i'm going back to Your presence. i hope it will stay with me for as long as possible. i really miss the Presence. and thinking about it, i really want to cry. thanks for all that You had done. going to enjoy tomorrow. oh ya. must remember, tomorrow got BM. yeah. cleaning the house of the Lord. cleaning it with great attitude. because it is His house. :)